A Different Path

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Some may say I took the easy path to becoming a writer. The cowardly path. I was too scared to follow my dreams as an undergrad, so I took the safe route. I found a job, got married young, started a family five years later and now that I have the stability of a loving, supportive husband who has a stable job that pays well, I have the ability to be an artist. I’m not arguing this because it’s true.

But that doesn’t mean it isn’t scary at times. We settled in an area of the country where it’s very difficult to make ends meet on one income. Artists don’t become artists for the money. They do it because there is an innate drive living inside their hearts which compels them to keep creating and sharing their work. The hope is that one day, the compensation will follow. All things considered, my husband and I are more savers than we are spenders. Our idea of a splurge is taking a couples vacation to Mexico for our 10-year anniversary. Lucky for us both sets of parents jump at the chance to watch their grandkids for a week.

So yes, I feel very fortunate to be able to write and stay home with my kids while they’re young. I see each day just how fast this time is passing. Which is funny because I’m simultaneously sad about their “baby” years almost being over and {maybe a little too} eager for their school years to begin. I anticipate long, quiet stretches of six hours a day where I can devote some serious time to our newly-formed non-profit and all the exciting projects my partner and I keep dreaming up. And then there’s the memoir that’s relentlessly floating around in my mind. I want to plan and write and get it all out on paper so that I can re-work, re-write and re-organize the thoughts from my early struggles with my illness, still so vivid in my subconscious.

These days I see clearly the path which I’ve found myself peddling on, a steady pace keeping me in shape for the hills ahead. This path is one on which I eventually tell my whole story, hopefully encouraging people from all walks of life to be brave and stand up for what they believe in but are too afraid to say out loud.

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